Friday, July 10, 2009

TSMSS - Seth's song

I have been participating in Then Sings My Soul Saturday over at Amy's Signs, Miracles & Wonders blog for a couple of months now. A few weeks ago I decided to share about my kids' songs. Each child in our family receives a "special" song from mommy, just for them! You can read about Sean's song, Cary's song, Kayleigh's song and the lullaby they all share. And that brings us to Seth's song.

Honestly, I've been almost dreading getting to sharing Seth's song, for a few reasons. I fear it will be misunderstood. But truthfully, that doesn't bother me as much as this next thing. And this is going to sound silly but I almost fear reaching the end of being able to share things about Seth. I feel like I only have so many tales to tell and stories to share before I will have shared it all. In my head, I know that's not exactly true. I will ALWAYS be Seth's mom and as long as that is true, I'm sure there will be things to share. But since I'm new enough on this journey that I'm still re-capping events that occurred, I don't know what being able to share Seth in the future is going to look like. So, currently, everything I share is one more thing I give away, and I feel like I'm eventually going to run out. Seth was a huge part of our lives though, and still is. I love him so much and I want the world, or at least my small corner of it to know him, so share I must! And with all that spewed out said, here it is:

The video is not great, the audio is okay, the song actually starts about 2 minutes in, and the bit at the end doesn't apply! :)

When I was in high school, we did the musical Snoopy!. (I did props. Yes, I was a theater geek in high school.) All the days we spent in the PICU sitting by Seth's bedside, I would rub his little head and whisper quietly "Poor, sweet baby." That got me thinking about this song. I actually came home, looked up the song online, printed out the lyrics and memorized them! (This was all during Seth's first hospital stay). I would then sing it to him, while sitting by his bed, eventually when rocking him. To this day, I can't sing it without crying..

Poor Sweet Baby from Snoopy! The Musical
Lyrics by Hal Hackady
Poor, sweet baby
Poor, poor, sweet, sweet baby
Show me where it hurts, I'll tell you how to make it well
I've won lots of loving cups for playing show and tell
My poor, sweet baby
Poor, poor, sweet, sweet baby
When you need a shoulder come and try mine on for size
I'm real good at holding hands and Really great at drying eyes
Just try me Cry me all your tears
Why deny me The pleasure of dryin'em Stoppin' you cryin'em
Don't despair for Smiles are what I'm there for
You won't have to look for me, I'll always be right near
Near to kiss and cuddle you and Whisper in your little ear
Don't fear
There, there, Baby Poor, sweet baby
Poor, sweet baby Mama's near.


Chris said...

thanks for sharing your song with us.. and your story about Seth..

(K)arla said...

Kathryn -

If you ever come to the day when you feel like you don't have another Seth Story to tell, begin at the beginning again.

The lyrics to Seth's song made me cry this morning. So sweet.

My kids songs are always contemporary songs of the time they were born. When they come on the radio I say "HEY! It's _____'s song". I was too young and stupid to have one for Kristen, but Kaitlyn's is "Every Heartbeat" by Amy Grant. Kamryn's is "Don't want to miss a thing" by Aerosmith. I had a miscarriage between Kam and James and that baby's song is "Loves Divine". Then my James'is "A new day has come" by Celine Dion.

Thanks for sharing and letting me share this morning.

Hazel said...

Thanks for sharing this music. I'll play this for my 5-year old. I love this and I'm sure he'll love it too! Hugs for Seth.

Debbie said...

Thank you for sharing your memories of Seth with us. The words to Seth's song are so precious. Only from a dear mother's heart can words of love flow.

Debra said...

Oh my ... thank you for sharing Seth's song with us this morning. Quite endearing, indeed.

Blessings to you, sweet one.

shopannies said...

love charlie brown

Angelika said...

So lovely. Thank you for sharing your heart.

Your head might run out of things to say about your much loved little son, Seth, but your heart will never run out ... it'll just get bigger and overflow.

Warm smiles and hugs

Karen said...

Oh, what a precious story and song you heart is so touched...and I agree with Angelika, when our mind runs out of new thoughts and memories, our heart will take over....

Cathy said...

Bless his little sweet heart ~ Thanks for sharing that sweet little song. I agree with Karla, you can always start with the beginning stories again.

Lauren said...

that is precious ... thank you for sharing that and being vulnerable with us... be blessed today :)

Steph said...

Such a sweet song. I know what you mean about running out of things to share. When I write about Annika, I try to pick pictures I haven't posted before, and it always bothers me that I have to look through the same pictures every time--that there won't ever be new ones. But I have found, I keep learning new things from her, and I keep changing because of what she is continually teaching me. So her story goes on, and Seth's will too.

MsRay said...

This is cool! I enjoyed listening. Thanks for sharing :)

Sara said...

Both my babies have special songs too. Thank you for sharing Seth's.