Saturday, October 25, 2008
Sorting it out
So, I haven't posted lately. (Duh). I'm struggling just a bit (Duh, again).
When I started this blog, I told my big kids (read: Sean & Cary) that "No, this would not be ALL about Seth." "Yes, this will be about our WHOLE family". Honestly, I intended for this to be a place that I could update people - friends, family, other interested parties - on how Seth was doing. We'd be able to share his milestones here, etc. Okay. So. Not so much.
I'm struggling to figure out where exactly I'm going with this whole blog now. Maybe I should just throw in the towel? I figure by now I've lost any readership I'd managed to attract (yup, all four of you).
And then I realized something.
I need to rethink ALL of it. Not just the blog. Everything. I'm the mom of four children with only three to actively parent. I don't know what that looks like. Sean has TWO younger brothers. Cary is the "luckiest" (as we tell him) because he has a big brother AND a little brother. Kayleigh is NOT the youngest member of our family. I just mentioned to a friend yesterday that I want Kayleigh to KNOW that she IS a big sister. I don't know what any of this looks like.
So, apparently, for now, this blog is a metaphor of my life. I guess that we'll figure it out together. God, my husband, I and the kids. And as best I can, we'll let you come along for the ride. Hang on! I don't know what's around the next bend!
Your own ears will hear him. Right behind you a voice will say, “This is the way you should go,” whether to the right or to the left. Isaiah 30:21