So, I confess, the TV show The Unit is a vice that Leland and I share. It is one of the few programs we actually try to sit down and watch together every week (after the kids are in bed). Last week was the season opener. I was particularly touched by one scene and God really used it to speak to me. In retrospect, I truly believe that God was preparing me for winding up where we are now.
Spoiler alert: If you didn't see the season opener a week ago last Sunday, I'm about to ruin it foryou.
In the show, Jonas & Bob & the other guy who I can't remember (not Mac) are holed up in a cabin in the woods. They are trying to protect the vice president elect from terrorists who have already killed the President of the US and the President elect. All their efforts to thwart the enemy fail, they are out of ammunition and expecting the end to come any second. Jonas, who has been somewhat injured by shrapnel, with all the effort he can muster, pulls himself up to the big clawfoot tub where they have hidden the VP elect and lays across the tub. He expects that the very last thing he does will be this last ditch effort to protect this other man. (The calvary, Mac of course, shows up at the very last possible second. "What took you so long?").
That scene spoke so intensely to me. I kept thinking about it. I want to throw myself across Seth in that manner. I want to drape myself over him and with my last effort, everything I have, I want to protect that sweet boy. And as much as I want to do that, I can not. But all is not lost. God can. And does. GOD can throw Himself over that sweet baby I love so much AND our Saviour is the calvary coming at the last moment. At the cross, this has already been done for us. Furthermore, if I keep throwing myself over Seth, I make it a little harder for Jesus. At this point, it's just my job to get out of the way.
And because God works in mysterious ways, I"ve recently been reminded in more than one way & place of Psalm 18: 2. "The Lord is my Rock, my Fortress, and my Deliverer; my God, my keen and firm Strength in Whom I will trust and take refuge, my Shield, and the Horn of my salvation, my High Tower" Thank you, Lord.
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- I"m a wife and mom (and part-time church secretary). I find joy in my life by serving my Lord and loving my husband, Leland and our children, Sean,11, Cary,7, Kayleigh,3, and Seth (in Heaven). Seth was born with "half a heart", HLHS and went home to the Lord after his 2nd surgery (the Glenn); he was 6 1/2 months old. The blog is a place to document our family's journey.
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4 comments:
Isn't it amazing how in a desperate situation like you are experiencing, God speaks in a bazillion ways. And you are listening and responding - an amazing testimony of your faith.
God can speak to us through anything. :)
I'm one that has to have the scream, rather than the still voice of God, so when Colin wasn't doing so well after his Fontan, I was praying and at my wits end, and I heard a voice, interupting my prayers and train of thought, say "I control all things". Control is a big thing for me to give up, so I knew for sure that that was God speaking to me. I've never had that before. He can even speak to you through a T.V. show (we watch too :)) What an amazing God. We are continuing to pray for you guys.
God bless,
Millie and Colin-HLHS
www.cutiecolin.blogspot.com
Millie - I usually need screams too! Or a 2x4 across the head.. Thank you for your prayers.
Thank you for showing us all that we need to listen. Your testimony is so amazing. God is everywhere and I am blown away at the ways he uses to get us to listen. He is covering your little guy. Love Kim
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