Tuesday, May 12, 2009
In Other Words Tuesday - Answered Prayers?
Well, today is Tuesday and that means time for "In Other Words: Tuesday". Today Loni is hosting over at Writing Canvas. Head on over and check out the amazing, inspiring story she shared today, as well as what others have to say about today's quote. Keep reading for MY take on it!
Can I say how much I LOVED today's quote? Well, LOVED might be a bit strong. Actually, now that I'm REALLY thinking about it, I may not even like this quote from Gary House's book, Seeking the Face of God: The path to a more Intimate Relationship with Him. But here's the story.
As you well know, I HAVE learned that faith isn't tested by how often God answers prayers with a Yes. What kind of faith would it be if it were? If God were a "genie", what sort of faith would we be required to have? (Short answer: None). Believe me, I would like nothing better than to have all four of my children here, together, healthy and happy. I would. And I prayed for that. And because I don't get to just rub the magic lamp (and we live in a sinful, fallen world due to our free will), that's not what my life looks like right now. And I'll be honest, deep down, I'm rarely okay with that. I MISS Seth. Every minute of every day. I WANT him here with me, that's how it's SUPPOSED to be. (In my book anyway, right?). And it's not like that.
And, yet, I have faith. I have a Lord who loves me. I am BLESSED to be able to serve Him. Sometimes, right now especially, serving the Lord hurts. I've been taking Kleenex to the hospital (as previously mentioned). And as much as I "like" to go up there and see the nurses and some of the people who loved us through our journey with Seth, it is, EVERY SINGLE TIME, harder than I think it's going to be. I have been able to share parts of Seth's story. I have done those things because God has given me the opportunity and asked me to be obedient in serving Him. But bigger than that, I recieve grace from God to do those things.
Angie, Audrey's mom, shares on her blog, Bring the Rain, that when they told her Audrey would die, her response was "I think my Jesus is the same as He was before I walked into this room". My Jesus is the same yesterday, today, tomorrow. He was before Seth was born and He continues to be after Seth's death. And I AM grateful. For where would we be without Him? Thank God, I can cling to Him with all my might and never have to find out!